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I've...had this weird urge to punch something lately. Somethihng solid and hard (so those of you who were going to tell me to hit a pillow, sorry but no). It's not that I have some unreleased anger to deal with. To tell you the truth I've been quite passive for a few weeks now, pain-stakingly numb even to a point where I don't really feel anything. Emotions aren't the problem this time.

Maybe it's all just getting to me. With father drama, school stress, and old memories of things I'd rather's all building up. Is it normal to lay in bed for hours just staring at the ceiling? Cuz I don't think it is. Oh, no. The long hours of thinking have come back. Joy...

I need...something. I'm not sure what it is. I just know that I'm not getting it. Meh...
-glances around- Well, this is...different. And completely unexpected. Am I the only one who's seeing things? Do you notice the drastic changes around here? Wow, I'm amazed. Looks quite awesome don't you think? Let me just bask in the glow of this...transformation a little bit.
Forgive me for I've been off on vacation for the past two weeks. Took a trip to sunny California to visit family. To recap on what all happened I give you this:

Monday, July 3, 2006 - Happy birthday to me! ^-^ Went shopping with mom and one of her old friends. Saw nothing I liked except a few Shaman King mangas. Came home and went back out to get fireworks. Brother didn't take me out bar hopping though cuz he had to work, which I'm glad of. I don't quite trust him with a drunken me.

Tuesday, July 4, 2006 - Hung out all day until nightfall cuz all our stuff were for night time fun. Played until 1:00 AM in the morning doing stupid things including almost getting killed by mom [I‘m being serious here, one of displays she lit fell over and it‘s side and started spinning as it was shooting at us].

Wednesday, July 5, 2006 - Left for the airport 5:00 - 5:30 AM and boarded the plane at around 6:30 AM. Arrived in Los Angeles at around 8:00 AM Pacific time [10:00 AM Central] where me and mom were taken to her friend‘s house. Cousin Christine picked me up at around 1:00 PM and took me down to Palmdale where we proceeded to go to see Cars and to the park afterwards.

Thursday, July 6, 2006 - I‘m not exactly sure. I think we went shopping…yes, shopping. That‘s when I got a nice pair of pants from the Sears store. Me and Christine also helped cousin Thao pick out some new clothes.

Friday, July 7, 2006 - Me, Christine, and Thao went back to the mall to return some stuff and ended up getting clothes for Thao that she actually liked. Got some nice stuff at Hot Topic for myself as well. Had a picnic in the park before Christine took me to hang out with her friend Virginia and some of her friends at Starbucks.

Saturday, July 8, 2006 - Beach day! Tis when I got my nice sunburn. But that‘s alright cuz I actually have some color on me legs now [not to mention I get the fun of finally being able to peel it off now]. On the way home I also got my first taste of In-N-Out food. That stuff‘s delicious, though I couldn‘t bring any home for my brother like he asked.

Sunday, July 8, 2006 - Cousin Todd took me and Christine out to eat barbeque at Dave‘s Barbeque. He offered to get me an alcoholic drink but I refused cuz he‘s a huge penny pincher and would get me something generic. He did take us and Leyna [Thao‘s little girl] to see Pirates of the Caribbean but he only paid for himself and Leyna [no comment on that]. Went to Barnes & Nobles too…twice. Got myself a shiet load of books before going to hang out with Christine‘s friend Virginia. Played Scattergory, Scrabble, Trouble, and then Girl Talk at her house.

Monday, July 10, 2006 - Made a few errands at Costco and ordered a cake for our joint birthday parties [for me, Leyna, and Christine]. Shopping in Burbank I do believe or at least somewhere around that area. Didn‘t see anything I liked but that‘s alright. I‘m usually not a big spender and am picky of the things I get. Had dinner at the Elephant Café though which was nice.

Tuesday, July 11, 2006 - Picked up the cake and the alcohol for the party. Yes, we had a drinking party for my amusement. Drank an Apple-tini, a margarita, and a few sips of a Screwdriver. All of which were heavy on the vodka [because my family likes it strong]. I took a few pictures but sadly I didn‘t get drunk so their not as entertaining. I was slightly buzzed though with was an odd feeling. Apparently I get more talkative as I drink more alcoholic beverages. Go figure.

Wednesday, July 12, 2006 - Aunt Moony asked Christine to take me to the mall so that we could meet her there…so she could buy me a purse. And not just any purse, but an expensive Coach purse that probably costs more than anything else I own. Ended up shopping again where I got some really nice stuff, especially from my dear Hot Topic. -heart- Christina made me a Screwdriver for the road before Mom‘s friend picked me up and took me down to the valley to meet up with her.

Thursday, July 13, 2006 - I actually spent the entire day watching Kenshin episodes all the way up to 30 I think. Mom‘s friend took us out to eat...and mom offered me half her Corona [which I took]. I found it ironic that she was warning me about getting drunk off of half a Corona bottle when I survived drinking three heavily alcoholic drinks [but shh! We won‘t tell her about all that].

Friday, July 14, 2006 - Most of the day was spent at the airport or on the plane. The trip back home seemed shorter than the trip out though. -shrugs- I‘m just happy I got my complimentary cookies on the flight.

And that would be my short recap of my trip to California. I'll leave you with this though: It's good to be home. :heart:
Explain your account name and its meaning. When you're done, tag as many people as there are letters in your name.

I watched too much Shaman King. For some odd reason I always liked the dynamics of the Tao family on the show; how they valued their family honor above anything else. Sure Tao En went about regaining that in the wrong way, but he had good intentions behind it. And besides, Tao Ren made a great attept to rectify that. And it always helps that Tao Ren was overall my favorite character ever. The empress part of my name came about when I was writing a Shaman King multi-chapter fic about Hao's first life, making connections between the Tao and Asakura family [as a way to explain the feud that seems to be going on between them in the anime].

I hearby tag the following [though I'm not even sure I have enough friends for this]:

1. cocky-gurlie
2. zedstef
3. rhinestoner
4. brozedragon45678
5. Depressed-Shadows
6. Oyamada-Manta
7. VML
8. LevyRasputin
9. sarah-the-strange
10. VCLagarde

In all honesty, you don't have to if you don't want to. I just thought it would be fun.

. Slept in your bed: me...unless there's someone sneaking naps in my bed while I'm at school
. Saw you cry: wow, that was so long ago I can't even remember. -shrugs- I generally don't let pplz see me cry.
. You went to the movies with: the girl I carpool with. we went to go see Scary Movie 4 and Take the Lead at Ameristar Casino
. You went to the mall with: -thinks- when was the last time I went to the mall? -lightbulb- last December with my mom!
. Yelled at you: most likely Okaasan
. Sent you an email: "Mama Bear"


. California: yup
. Hawaii: nope
. Mexico: that's a negative
. China: close but no cigar
. Canada: and no


. Wished you were the opposite sex: every freakin' month
. Had an imaginary friend: sometimes I think I still do. isn't that right? imaginary friend nods
. Do you have a crush on someone: it's not a crush if they know about it
. What book are you reading now: The Chronicles of Narnia! I'm currently in the third book, The Horse and His Boy


. Worst feeling in the world: loneliness
. Future son's name: either, Marek Ramone, Brian Gohan, Mason Gareth, Luke Ayden, or Elijah Ren [I spent a long time thinking those up so NO TAKEY!!!]
. Future daughter's name: either Avalon Lee, Raven Kiyone, Madison Mimori, or Kiemi Quinn [I spent a long time thinking those up so NO TAKEY!!!]
. Do you sleep with stuffed animals: not really
. What's under your bed: a lot of junk
. Siblings: two older ones
. Location: Missouri
. College plans: currently nearing the end of my second year as an English major
. Piercings/tattoos: one piercing in each ear, but maybe I'll get a tattoo one day
. Do you drink: haven't developed a tast for it
. Who is your best friend: "Ryoko-sama"
. Where do you want to get married: Los Vegas
. Whom do you really hate: anyone who's given me a reason to hate you
. Been in Love: maybe
. Do you drive: not often enough
. Do you have a job: not yet
. Do you like being around people: only if they're my friends
. Are you for world peace: it's a nice though, but unlikely to happen
. Are you a health freak: HA! that's a funny one
. Have you ever loved someone you had no chance with?: -sighs- comment... T.T
. Have you ever cried over something someone of the opposite/same sex did: once or twice
. Do you have a "type" of person you always go after: -runs through all the pplz she's been attracted to- um...the ones that make me laugh?
. Do you want to get married: part of me does, but the other part of me just thinks it's too much trouble
. Do you want kids: I want someone to call me "mommy"


. Room in house: my room
. Color: Midnight Blue
. Perfume or cologne: neither. scented lotion!
. Month: October
. Flower: um...the ones that smell nice


. Cried: nope
. Bought something: um...gas?
. Met someone: hehe, I don't remember their name
. Missed someone: my lil Washu & Ryoko-sama
. Hugged someone: not since Monday
. Kissed someone: not since...December of 2003
. Become shy around someone: nah
. Been to the diner: what diner?
. Exercised: does dancing around my room like a mad woman count?


First best friend: Ryoko-sama
First screen name: DragonStorm85
First CD: Robyn is Here
First pet: a squirrel we named Pee-wee...he ran away a week later
First piercing: my ears when I was an infant
First musician you remember hearing in your house: Mariah Carey


Last car ride: yesterday after school
Last kiss: December 27, 2003 with my ex
Last good cry: Summer of 2004
Last library book: um...sometime back in middle school
Last movie seen: Take the Lead
Last TV show: One Tree Hill and The Bedford Diaries
Last food consumed: spring rolls
Last phone call: ...yesterday with my mom
Last shoes worn: my blue & grey Sketchers
Last cd played: Anywhere But Home - Evanescence
Last item bought: gas for the car
Last annoyance: school assignments
Last disappointment: my procrastination
Last website visited: LJ


What color socks are you wearing: I'm not wearing socks
What time did you wake up today: 4:13 AM [I was having a bad night]
What is your career going to be: first class slacker
Where are you going to live: in a house
What kind of car(s) do you drive: one that works


Current mood: indifference
Current music: Somewhere I Belong - Linkin Park
Current hair: up in a bun [but soon to be cut]
Current clothes: tankt top & shorts
Current annoyance: school
Current desktop picture: nothing

Tagging: cocky-gurlie, Depressed-Shadows, zedstef, rhinestoner
tagged by :icondepressed-shadows:

The 1st player of this "game" starts with the topic "6 weird habits/things about yourself" and people who get tagged need to write a journal about their 6 weird habits/things as well as state this rule clearly.

In the end, you need to choose the next 6 people to be tagged and list their names.

......6 weird things about me.....

1) I have a double jointed thumb; just one. I'm not sure when I realized that it was. Let's just say that it took me a while to realize that it bent back differently from everyone else's.

2) I used to be afraid of my shadow...literally. I blame my mother for that. When I was little she told me not to play with my shadow or it would come alive at night and kill me...yeah.

3) I told my Creative Writing class that I heard voices in my head the first day of school. No explanation needed on that one.

4) I have a weakness for guys wearing bondage pants and anything of that style of clothing.

5) I have recently started to dance around in my room with the music cranked up high on a daily basis, just for the hell of it. I've since lost 3 lbs. [last time I checked]

6) I really do hear voices in my head.

tagged by :iconzedstef:

Three names you go by
1. D
2. Tao
3. "Hey you!"

Three screen names you've had
1. DragonStorm85
2. Tao_Empress
3. my_fish_keep_dying

Three physical things you like about yourself
1. hair
2. dimples
3. thin wrists?

Three physical things you don't like about yourself
1. upper arm area
2. stomach
3. boobs [I just want them to match the size of my azz that's all]

Three parts of your heritage
1. Vietnamese
2. ...Asian...
3. Oh, did I forget to mention Vietnamese?

Three things that scare you
1. my mother...sure she's a good three inches shorter than I am, but she will whip my azz
2. losing all the memories I made in this life that will be lost after death
3. ending up alone and unloved...forgotten

Three of your everyday essentials
1. computer to type with or pen and paper to write with
2. my imagination
3. music

Three things you are wearing right now
1. tank
2. pants
3. Underwear [no comando for me]

Three of your favourite bands/musical artists
1. Linkin Park
2. Evanescence
3. Green Day

Three of your favourite songs
1. Crawling - LP
2. Listen to Your Heart - DHT
3. Perfect Melody - Unknown DJ

Three new things you want to try in the next 12 months
1. Learn Japanese
2. Start a weapon collection
3. Find someone worth my time to start a realtionship with

Three things you want in a relationship
1. loyalty
2. humour
3. love

Two truths and a lie
1. I used to cut myself
2. I like to torture people
3. I have a chinese surname

Three things about the opposite sex that appeal to me
1. sense of humor
2. personality
3. blue eyes [alright so I have a weakess for it]

Three of your favourite hobbies
1. writing
2. listening to music
3. chillaxin'

Three things you want to do really badly right now
1. be done with school forever
2. have enough time to write my stories
3. hang out with all my friends

Three careers you're considering
1. writer
2. editor
3. designer [which oddly enough was my mom's idea]

Three places I want to go on vacation
1. Japan
2. Ireland
3. Hawaii

Three things to do before I die
1. be loved.
2. be remembered
3. be myself

Three celeb crushes
1. Elijah Wood
2. Haley Berry [I may be straight, but even I will admit that she's hot]

I hereby tag the following to do either one, both, or neither [doesn't matter all that much to me]:

the official first day of spring...and it snowed. hehe, gotta love the weather in the mid-west. nothing worthy to close school and the snow melted by the afternoon. either way I didn't have class so I didn't have to deal with it.

the week's been ok so far, I guess. I don't know, something about Monday. seemed like half the campus just got up, looked outside, saw that it was raining, and said "Fuck it, I'm going back to bed." it was nice and quite for once. don't count on many more days of that. this is college after all, where most exams are based on lectures given by the professors. what the hell is the point of text books then if we're just going to be tested on what comes out your mouth? shiet, save me some money so that I can use it to pay my tuition.

but enough of that. to the matter concerning the subject of this post. Monday morning while I was waiting for my carpool to come, I managed to catch Good Morning America as they were discussing this funeral protesting that seems to be going on. apparently, this small church is going around to funerals for soldiers who have been killed in Iraq protesting with signs and crap. but get this, they're not protesting about the war. they're protesting about the gays of the world. it is their belief that these brave soldiers died because of our acceptance of the homosexual citizens of the populace.

-sighs- where do I begin?

and pplz wonder why I make fun of the religious deities all the time. it's because their followers always pull this kind of crap. "I do this in the name of _________". BULL SHIT! I don't know about all of you, but it is my belief that the almighty beings that reside up there only want peace. the only thing these so called "religious freaks" are doing is creating more unnecessary conflict.

and to those idiotic protestors, if God was so against homosexuality, why would he allow it to carry on? isn't he all powerful? wouldn't he have the power to take care of the problem himself instead of letting his "minions" take care of it for him? he supposedly created the universe in a week so don't you think he'd be able to take care of a small number of people on this measily planet called Earth?

whatever. makes me glad to say I'm a Buddhist. sure I don't know much about the religion and I'm a very bad example of one [they're pacifists and I...get violent on occasion] but at least they don't persecute others for having a different belief system [at least I hope not]. makes me wonder why Christianity is so popular when it's the center of most of the wars that have been waged in the history of mankind. all that these stupid "Holy Wars" do is promote more hatred. I'm starting to think Ryoko-sama had a good idea when she decided to become an atheist.
They say if you have over 43 your spoiled!! Add up everything and put you COMPLETE total on the bottom.

[x] A cell phone
[ ] a hair straightener
[ ] your own computer (does a laptop count??)
[x] your own car
[ ] good grades
total: 2

[ ] chanel/dior sunglasses/glasses/gucci/coach
[ ] burberry purse (do I LOOK like a chav to you??)
[ ] A boyfriend/girlfriend
[ ] a curling iron
total: 0

[ ] every fall out boy cd
[ ] something from american eagle
[ ] something from abercrombie
[x] something from hot topic
[ ] a pet
total: 1

[x] some type of trophy/award
[ ] Full/Queen size bed
[ ] King size bed
[ ] a mini iPod or video or regular
[ ] a jersey from a professional team
total: 1

[x] more than $100 (haha, I'm poor...)
[x] a radio/cd player
[ ] Monster,Full Throttle,Amp,Etc. In Your Fridge
[ ] something related to Green Day
[x] xanga
total: 3

[ ]
[x] make-up (not like I use it though)
[x] a desk in your room
[ ] a hill in your backyard
[ ] DDR
total: 3

[ ] a pair of skis
[x] alarm clock
[ ] a pair of ice skates
[ ] rollerblades
[ ] treadmill
total: 1

[ ] your own phone line (not including cell phone)
[x] AIM
[x] Yahoo!
[ ] MSN
[ ] ICQ
total: 2

[ ] perfume/cologne (don't like wearing the stuff NE ways)
[ ] bath and body works lotion
[x] necklaces & bracelets
[ ] a journal
[x] toothbrush
total: 2

[ ] yogurt & peaches in your fridge
[ ] x's in your screename
[ ] a birthday in january
[ ] a famous relative
[x] a relative that lives in a different state AND country
total: 1

[x] a disowned relative (several)
[ ] an electric scooter
[x] your own bathroom
[ ] your own band
[ ] any rock band shirts
total: 2

[ ] gamecube
[ ] a guitar
[ ] a hammock
[ ] a basketball hoop
[ ] a soccer net
total: 0

[ ] a bike
[ ] a mini van
[ ] a relative that lives in Florida
[ ] a vc andrews book
[x] a friend who does alcohol/drugs/smokes
total: 1

[x] bad grades
[ ] locker at skool
[ ] a baby
[ ] a pet chimpanzee
[ ] sparkly blue nail polish
total: 1

[ ] a "vote for pedro" tshirt/hoody
[ ] the movie "the 40 year old virgin"
[ ] a promise ring
[ ] a pool table
[ ] swimming pool
total: 0

[ ] Trampoline
[x] livejournal
[x] flip flops
[ ] steve madden shoes
[ ] the sims 2
total: 2

[ ] a ping pong table
[ ] air hockey table
[x] a basement
[ ] converses (I want some!!)
[ ] construction paper
total: 2

[x] markers, crayons, etc..
[ ] coloring books
[ ] a nice singing voice
[ ] XBOX
[ ] PS2
[ ] PSP
[ ] DS
total: 1

[ ] some type of disease
[ ] rose red movie
[ ] wife beaters
[x] a mom or a dad
total: 1

[ ] an older sister(s)
[ ] a younger brother
[ ] a younger sister
[ ] a sled
[ ] a lake/pond/creek near my house
[x] friends who u love
total: 1

25, not too bad.
dude, just had a freaky azz dream. the details are a little lost to me right now but I'll try to do my best.  

oh so I guess I was in this apartment building, I'm guessing Centry Towers over on Independence Ave cuz Brenda was there, among others.  of all pplz, Spike was there [WTF???] and I guess we were just reminicing about things when all of a sudden he pulls out this ring and asks me to marry him.  and what do I do? I say yes [WHAT THE HELL WAS I THINKING?!?!?!?!?].

to make a long story short, he only asked me to get back at me for all the "mean" things I did to him in high school.  payback if you will. and it's not like I didn't see it coming. the entire time during the dream I had my suspicions about it too, mainly because of the fact that in real life he has a boyfriend [yes, he swings that way].

but yeah, freaky. why the hell would I dream of him of all pplz? and why did he have to ask me to marry him? why the hell did I agree? I need to check the dream books on this one. -_-'
this is extremely long so only read if you REALLY have nothing better to do. -sighs- let's get this started.

<10:19 AM>

About Me
Name: Tao
Birthday: 7/3/85
Birthplace: USA [and that's all you need to know]
Your heritage: Vietnamese
Eye Color: Brown
Hair Color: Dark Brown [wow, so diverse]
Righty or Lefty: Righty
Zodiac Sign: Cancer
Shoe Size: 7 1/2
Single or Taken: single
Bad Habits: um...I don't know. I have the attention span of a goldfish?
Shampoo: Pantene Pro V
Your thoughts first waking up: I WANNA GO BACK TO SLEEP!!!
Your bedtime: I put myself to bed around 10:00 PM

Music: various, currently most forms of rock & techno with a smidget of classical
Male Singer: ...???
Male Group: hehe, Backstreet Boys
Female Singer: um...Michelle Branch?
Female Group: -thinks- The Veronicas
Color: Midnight Blue
Car: one that works
Slushy Flavor: blue [you know slushy flavors are defined by their color]
Magazine: I don't really read magazines NE more
TV Show: One Tree Hill
Song at the Moment: Unwritten - Natasha Beddingfield
Language: English/Japanese
Food & Beverage: #8 at Mickey D's with a Mr. Pibb
Weekend Activity: writing while listening to music
Season: Autumn
Holiday: Independence Day
Hobby: writing
Month: July
Accessory: my yin yang necklace
Food: -looks up- didn't you already ask?
Girl friends: Ryoko-sama, Mama Bear, Lil Washu, Shorty from Hawaii
Boy friends: Sketch, Mr. Bond
Movie: Lord of the Rings
Band: Evanescence, Linkin Park, Green Day
Actor: Jim Carey, Adam Williams
Actress: Haley Berry
Game System: I don't play videogames
Subject in school: Creative Writing
Animals: Dragons
Sports: x-treme

Color: bright pastels
Food: anything in the squid family
Weekend Activity: sitting at home with nothing to do
Types of People: hypocrits

Do you…
Shower everyday: -nods-
Think you've been in love: perhaps
Want to go to college: already there
Like high school: I did
Want to get married: maybe one day
Type correctly: most of the time
Believe in yourself: when the mood hits me
Have any tattoos? Where: I'm thinking of getting one
Have any piercings? Where: just one in each ear
Get motion sickness: not that I know of
Think you're a health freak: HA! that's a joke
Get along with your parents: almost always
Like thunderstorms: I do actually, they usually mean me getting a GOOD nite's sleep
Have any pets: used to...sadly my fish Paco died. :tear:
Have any siblings: two
Like your parents: my mom...
Like music: who the hell doesn't?
Have a job: um...pass...
Want a job: no, but I need to get one
Smoke: hell no!
Drink: once every blue moon...which concerns me since my brother said he was going to get me drunk for my 21st. I don't think I can hold my liquor.
Do drugs: do asprins & cold medicines count?
Self-Mutilate: ...
Watch Comedy Central: I don't have cable -pouts-
Know someone that’s committed suicide: not that I know of
Like to swim: I can't swim darling
Sleep with a stuffed animal: not really
Like snowballs: ...snow is evil
Like to read: most definately
Watch TV: well duh!
Cuss: when the occasion hits me
Sing: all the time. it's so much fun!
Play an instrument: I'm an ameteur piano player
Like to play football:
Like to cook: can't cook to save my life
Clean your room: when I feel like it or looking for something
Do your homework: if I want to keep my grades up
Ever leave the computer: well I have to give it a break every once in a while right?
Like your town: it's ok, but nothng good or exciting ever happens
Like your family: most of them
Listen to country music: yes, and proud of it! :D
Listen to rap music: not my thing
Listen to punk music: oh yeah
Listen to Rock/Alternative Rock: of course!
Like to smile: always :D :D :D :D :D
Shop at Zumies: where's that?
Shop at Pac-Sun: occasionally

Right Now…
Clothes you're wearing: dark blue tank top & dark blue pants
Music you're listening to: No Scrubs - TLC
Time where you are: 10:41 AM
Annoyance that’s annoying you: ...nothing really
Current Desktop picture: some car
Book you're reading: The Chronicles of Narnia
CD in the player: Anywhere But Home - Evanescence, Hybrid Theory - Linkin Park, Mixed CD, Affirmation - Savage Garden, Never Gone - Backstreet Boys
DVD in the player: Hero w/ Jet Li

Last Person You…
Yelled at: um...probably my mom
Felt sorry for: Ryoko-sama
Missed terribly: -sighs- Lil Washu
Spoke to: mom

Have You Ever…
Had a Wish Come True: I think I did actually
Had a Dream Come True: man, that was creepy
Fallen in Love: I'd like to think so
Done Something You Regret: I did at first but now I don't
Tripped and Fell in Public: all the time
Sang in Public: I was in the school choir for 7 years...yes
Cried in Public: ...twice...
Stayed up all night: I was so wired...that was fun
Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: NEVER
Got beaten up: nope
Bungee jumped? maybe one day
Made yourself throw up? I kinda had to cuz I felt sick and my body wouldn't do it on it's own.
Skinny dipped? I don't think so.
Made yourself cry to get out of trouble? maybe when I was younger
Fallen for your best friend? she's hot and all, but nah
Been rejected? -sighs- yeah
Rejected someone? no doubt
Used someone? I'd like to think I'm not that type of person

Would you…
Like to go to the Super bowl:
Like to move to California when you’re older: just not my scene
Like to win a million dollars: HELL FREAKIN' YES!
Like to coach a professional sports team: no way
Like to go to a casualties concert: what?
Like to go to a Britney Spears concert: HELL NO
Like to cheer for the cowboys: nah
Like to Play basketball for the Lakers: what's with all the sports questions?
Ever date someone for their looks: looks fade sweetie
Ever date someone for their money: I should hope not...although that might be nice for a while

Best eye color: blue [I have a weakness for it]
Best hair color: dyed some dramatic color like deep red or electric blue
Short or long hair: short enough
Best first date location: The mall
Best first kiss location: in the car as you're saying goodnite
Do You Have a Boyfriend/ Girlfriend: no, thanks for reminding me
If So, What’s Their Name: N/A
If So, How Long Have You Been Together: N/A
Do You Have a Crush: I wouldn't consider it a crush since he knows
Do They Know: -see above-

How do you feel about…
Your current president: I don't care much for politics
Abortions: it's her choice
Gay marriage: they have the right to be happy too
Rape: pplz who commit this should be put to the chair
Murder: those done in self defense can be forgiven
Drugs: living life is the only high I need
The number 69: it's a stupid "code"
Underage smoking: what's so cool about getting lung cancer?
Underage drinking: what's so cool about getting liver cancer?
War: don't like it but sometimes it's necessary
This survey: GEEZ, my fingers hurt! END ALREADY!!!

In the past 3 months have you…
Gone to the mall: yessum
Eaten an entire box of Oreos: I haven't eatten oreos in a while
Eaten sushi: actually yes, for the first time
Been on stage: nope
Gone skating: nope
Made homemade cookies: I don't make homemade anything
Gone skinny dipping: I don't think so
Dyed your hair: only the temporary stuff
Stolen anything: I stopped doing that a while ago

Number of…
Number of people I could trust with my life: 5
Number of CDs that I own: last I counted it was up to 90 something
Number of piercings: 2
Number of tattoos: none at the moment
Number of times my name's been in the news: I'm thinking never
Number of scars on my body: a few that I don't feel like counting
Number of things in my past that I regret: zero, it's pointless to regret things you can't change

The Future
Age you plan to be married: 25 [from the way things are going, not likely to happen]
Number and names of children: I want 2 or 3 but I have quite a few names: Marek Ramone, Mason Gareth, Luke Ayden, Elijah Ren, Avalon Le, raven Kione, Madison Mimori, Kiemi Quinn
Where will you be at age 20: I AM 20!!!!!!!!!!!! -glares-
Dream wedding: a drive-thru chapel in Vegas
How do you want to die: in my sleep
Dream job: winner of the lottery
Country you'd like to visit: Japan

Rings before you answer the phone: 2
How many houses you've lived in: 1
Shave your head for $5,000?: probably
Best times of your life so far: afternoons spent with Ryoko-sama talking about pointless things for hours on end
Are you in school: I'm on Spring Break
Are you funny: pplz say that I am
Are you a blonde at heart:
Have you ever been to Maryland: no, why?
In the morning I look like: someone who just woke up
What are you most scared of? stuff
What are you listening to right now?
Who is the last person that called you? my brother

Would You, Wouldn't You, You Did
Ride in a hot-air balloon: nah
Sky dive: not by myself!
Sing in front of a huge audience: I have
scuba dive: I CAN'T SWIM DARLING
Sit in the front seat of a roller coaster: have
Deliver a baby: eww!
Swim across the Amazon River: HOW MANY TIMES I GOTTA TELL YOU I CAN'T SWIM?!?!?!?!
Walk through the forest alone at night: creepy much?
Tell everyone what you honestly think of them: I've done that before
Walk naked through New York City for 10 minutes during rush hour: um, no
Walk up to Mike Tyson and call him a girl: I'm crazy but I'm not stupid
Disarm a bomb: -see above-
Clean the outside windows of a skyscraper: a little too afraid of heights for that
Draw a mustache on the Mona Lisa with a permanent marker: and deface a work of art?
Go on tour with Elvis: thanks
Go swimming during a thunder storm: knowning my luck, no
Perform surgery on your best friend: like she'd let me...then again...

Last Car Ride: went to the movies last nite
Last Kiss: two years ago
Last Library Book checked out: wow, I don't even remember
Last Movie Seen in Theatres: Ultraviolet
Last Cuss Word Uttered: shit
Last Beverage Drank: coffee
Last Food Consumed: rice
Last Phone Call: Ryoko-sama
Last TV Show Watched: ER
Last Time Showered: this morning
Last Shoes Worn: my dark blue Sketchers
Last CD Played: Anywhere But Home
Last Item Bought: tickets for the movie
Last Download: stamps for icon making
Last Soda Drank: um...I think it was a Coke
Last IM: wow...Monique?
Last Weird Encounter: I don't think I have weird encounters
Last Time In Love: I'd rather not think about it
Last Time Hugged: Wednesday

Word Association…
bed: head
sexy: azz
tough: luck
neato: cool beans
leather: hehe, thong
weird: -o
so: sorry
test: -icles
falling: down

Are you happy this survey is over: oh Kami, YES!!!

.: x full name- "Tao" is all you need to know
.: x height- 5'3''
.: x hair color- dark brown
.: x real hair color- -sighs- LIME GREEN [as if I'd dye my hair]
.: x eye color- brown
.: x birthday- July 3, 1985
.: x age- 20
.: x grade- college

.: x name of school and grade- UMKC first semester sophomore
.: x nicest teacher- who cares?
.: x meanest teacher- all of them since they decided to have all their mid-terms on the same day
.: x best subject- Creative Writing
.: x worst class- the rest of them [I don't read for my classes like I'm supposed to]
.: x worst subject- any kind of analysis
.: x what do you think about PE or athletics- the only way I'll get my needed exercise

.: x drink- NE thing but Mt. Dew
.: x ice cream flavor- Vanilla
.: x smell- surprisingly Vanilla
.: x sport- X-treme
.: x channel- Cartoon Network [what little I've seen of it]
.: x celebrity- Jim Carey
.: x memory- telling my Creative Writing class "I hear voices in my head" the first day of class
.: x candy- peanut butter M&M's
.: x show- One Tree Hill
.: x animal- Dragon

This or that
.: x roses or daisies- tulips
.: x cell phone or AIM- AIM
.: x mall or movies- mall
.: x tv or computer- computer
.: x cat or dog- fish
.: x rock or rap- rock
.: x water or milk- water
.: x shorts or pants- pants
.: x dinner and a movie or walk on the beach- where the hell am I going to find a beach in KC?
.: x blue or pink- blue
.: x color or black and white- color I suppose
.: x friends or family- both
.: x baseball or basketball- soccer
.: x coke or pepsi- Dr. Pepper
.: x bright or dark- Dark
The first player of the game starts with the topic of "5 Guilty Pleasures" and people who get tagged need to write an entry about 5 Guilty Pleasures as well as state this rule clearly. In the end you need to choose 5 people to be tagged and list their names.

1. Typing.  There’s just something intoxicating to me about the feel of my fingers moving at lightning speed to type up pages upon pages of thoughts, stories, poems, etc.  truth be told that’s the main reason why I spend so much time on the computer.  Sometimes I just sit at the computer for hours on end typing in random things that pop up.  It calms the voices in my head.

2. Icons. Tiny pictures of almost anything you can think of.  Trust me, I’ve made enough of them to know.  If it can be photographed it can be icon-ized.  And sometimes they move too!  Those are the best, especially when they have a nice catch phrase.  I’ve been known to snatch a few when pplz clearly state that I shouldn’t.  But what they don’t know won’t hurt them, right?

3. Backstreet Boys.  In a time where rap, hip-hop, and rock rule the stage, it’s become “uncool” to affiliate yourself with what would be deemed a “boy band” especially now that the majority of the ones that existed during my high school days are no longer together.  But no matter how old I am, I will always be a fan for however long they decide to make music, and I don‘t care who disagrees.  

4. Coffee.  Guilty pleasure because you would think the last thing a person like me would need is caffeine.  And not just any kind of coffee.  I’m only addicted to the kind I make at home.  Regular coffee brewed by the coffee maker, but with just the right amount of sugar and milk [sometimes the creamer if it‘s available] all mixed nicely together in my mug I got at Quick Trip a few years ago. Tis heaven.

5. Yaoi.  I don’t know.  The thought of two hot anime guys just going at it together kind of amuses me.  I’ve actually wrote a two sentence story concerning that subject that had me cracking up for at least 10 minutes.  But it’s been a while since I’ve read a good story about it though. Oddly I’m saddened by that [I‘m pretty sure you don‘t care, you‘re probably wondering what those two sentences were].

I hereby tag:
1. cocky-gurlie
2. Depressed-Shadows
3. VML
4. sarah-the-strange
5. AnastaziaNicoli
PS. The aforementioned don’t need to do this if they don’t feel like it [I don‘t expect very many of them, if any, to do this anyways].
GIRLS ARE UP TOP -- GUYS ARE BELOW!! [the way it should be] BE HONEST!



I wear pink: on occassion

I've dyed my hair: just the temp stuff

I've danced around in my underwear: hell yeah, I have a blast

I like(d) the Spice Girls: I so wanted to be Sporty or Poshe

I wear makeup: just lip stuff

Ive snuck out to meet boys: my mom knew I was out but she didn't know who I was meeting

I keep a diary: used to

I love chocolate: to a point...for me there is a such thing as too much

Chick flicks make me cry: that's what they're meant to do

Ive drank because of a guy: I don't drink

I still need my girl time: of course

It takes me at least an hour to get ready: HA! 45 minutes tops. I'm a very low maintanence girl

I still have sleep overs w/ my girls: I never really had a sleepover

I love doing my hair: would I spend three hours braiding it all if I didn't?

Guys suck: most of the time yes

My boyfriends better than yours: I wasn't aware that I even had one

Trucks are pretty much hot: they're smexy

I have low self-esteem: it pops up from time to time

Ive given a guy a fake number: oh hell yeah

Ive been honked at going down the road: when I was walking to and from Mickey D's

Ive been hit on in public: would college count as public?

Ive been called a slut: not to my knowledge

I probably deserved being called a slut: I don't really do NE thing to be worthy of being called a slut

I've gone commando: sorry, can't do it

I've been asked for my number by a guy Ive just met: yes

I gave him my number: NOPE!!!

I've asked a guy for his number who I just met: never

I like pop music: used to until they started playing their songs too much

I love singing: who doesn't?

I love dancing: yessum

Ive pulled hair when I got in a fight: I don't even think I've ever been in a fight

My boobs are too big: HA! that's funny

My boobs are too small: not really. they're just right for me.

Football players are hot: some of them...but their foul personalities kinda wreak that some times

I have my belly button pierced: I don't think so

I have my tongue pierced: see above

I have a tattoo: not yet, I kinda want one but I haven't decided


Guy Confessions


I have watched porn:

Ive slept naked:

I play video games:

I wear boxers to bed:

Ive thrown rocks @ a girls window:

Ive drank because I felt like it:

I still beat my buddies up:

Of course they never beat me up:

I drive a truck:

I drive some type of car:

I have a job:

I have more than one job:

I currently have a girlfriend:

My girlfriend is better than yours:

Im cocky:

Ive forgotten to return a phone call to a girl...or a few:

Not all guys are the same:

Id do anything for my girlfriend:

Im in love:

Ive honked at a girl going down the road:

Ive hit on a girl in public:

Ive asked a hot girl for her number that I just met:

Ive acted like a man whore:

Pamela Anderson is hot:

Sports over-rule everything else:

I like rock music:

I like rap music:

Ive been suspended:

Ive gotten detention:

The whole "if a guy has big feet" thing is true:

Cheerleaders are hot:
1. Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, and find line 4.
"Avec E-S-T-D-E accent aigu-M-A-R-E-S-T. D'ou tu es, Bruno?" <--- I grabbed my French Textbook

2. Stretch your left arm out as far as you can.
I would do that if there wasn't a dude sitting there doing his work. I'm in a campus computer lab.

3. What is the last thing you watched on TV?
Good Morning America as I waited for my carpool to show up

4. Without looking, guess what time it is:
9:30 AM...9:16 AM, wow that was no where close.

6. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
the printer

7. When did you last step outside? What were you doing?
half an hour ago, I was getting out of the car to go into the building

8. Before you started this survey, what did you look at?
to be honest I can't remem...oh wait I was looking at my account. then I got on here because I was deciding on whether or not to submit the story I wrote for Creative Writing class

9. What are you wearing?
grey jeans, grey & black jacket, blue long-sleeved shirt with a light blue Care Bear tee over it

10. Did you dream last night?
methinks not

11. When did you last laugh?
last night when the guy at the steak and sushi place asked my mom to open her mouth so that he could throw a shrimp in it

12. What is on the walls of the room you are in?
school stuff that I care not to describe in detail

13. Seen anything weird lately?
you mean aside from my mom buy her friend lacy underwear?

14. What do you think of this quiz?
the questions give me no room to reply in my usual sarcastic manner - no fun!

15. What is the last film you saw?
"Amistad" last weekend when Tuan was over

16. If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy?
a new house and car for my mom

17. Tell me something about you that I don't know:
I hear voices in my head

18. If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?
I don't know. never really thought of it. -thinks-

19. Do you like to dance:

20. George Bush:
who cares?

21. Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?

22. Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?

23. Would you ever consider living abroad?
as long as I didn't have to do it myself

24. What do you want God to say to you when you reach the pearly gates?
technically seeing as I'm a Buddhist I wouldn't be getting into heaven now would I? but if I do get a chance to meet him I want to hear him say "Buddha may sumo my azz but I'll get him flat drunk with my water to wine sh-tick" ...oh wait, that's Jesus...

25. 4 people who must also do this meme in THEIR journal:
TAG, YOU'RE IT!!! [in all honesty you don't have to if you don't want]: LevyRasputin, Depressed-Shadows, rhinestoner, brozedragon45678
Brief Comment: classes from 9-5. the days are quite long. NE ways, moving on to my musings...


I've come to realize that the time go by fast these days. what you once thought was plenty of time turns out to be not enough at all. I don't know. sounds like a lot of time wasted to me. we spend most of our lives trying to prepare for the future with school and promotions among other things. that's all fine and well. there's nothing wrong with making sure you and your loved ones are provided for.  

but my problem with that our time is spent on something that's undetermined. what about now? with all that time you spent concerned about what was going to happen, there's nothing to look back on when you get there. we just don't spend enough time living for today. and I don't know about you but I'd like to think that we should change that.

so Saturday my brother got into a car accident. some chick failed to stop and crashed into his Civic Si. car is completely trashed and he is now sproting one noticeable limp. he'll have 7-14 days off from work to recover. well at least he's still alive you know? sure he's hurting cuz his beautiful car is gone. but it could've been worse. the chick could've been driving a hummer. I've seen what that can do to a person and a car and I'm just glad that didn't happen to him.

then moving on to more tragic events of the new year, I find out yesterday that someone broke into my car the nite before. why they would want to break into my shiet car who knows. there's really nothing in there that they would or should want to take. I mean we bought the thing without a radio so...why? I don't know, maybe they wanted the engine.

this forebodes nothing good for the new year. -sighs- just perfect. :sarcasm:
aww, mom's birthday was on Friday. Big Bro took us out for  Red Lobster. perfect timing seeing that I was having a big hankering for shrimp that day. got to meet his new girl. she seemed nice enough.

mom seemed to be having fun to. of course it could've been the Bahama Mama he ordered for her. he dared me do down half of it. was feeling a little warm for about ten minutes or so. then he told me he was gonna get me flat drunk for my 21st. Mama Bear said she might get me drunk for my 21art too. great another reason for me to fear next July 3rd.

is it possible to havea hangover two days after you drink? cuz I was fine the morning after. but yesterday morning when I woke up, I was dizzy like a motha. maybe I'm weird that way. who knows? but methinks I'm gonna be one interesting drunk. ^^;
so what did I find when I signed on here? that 9 of my works had been faved. that was like a :shocked: moment there. just thought I'd share that with you all. now carry on with what you were doing.

[[ edit 12-14-05 ]]

so I was submitting something yesterday. and four minutes later when I was finished editing some stuff in the "Artist's Comments" box, someone faves it. four minutes after submitting it pplz! that was a...weird moment for me.

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PS. my brother made my mommy cry. that not good. :tears:
why? because school is cancelled [for once] and I have nothing else to do before I have to go outside and shovel snow for a few hours.  enjoy the idiocy that is me. :D

Personal Information
First Name//: Tao [that's all you need to know]
Age//: 20 going on 50
Gender//: femme
Nickname(s)//: Tao, D, bizzach [courtesy of my best friend], hey you!
Hair Color//: dark brown, maybe black
Hair Style//: long and just...sitting there on top my head
Eye Color//: dark brown

What is your favorite...
Color//: Midnight blue
Game//: never really thought about it
Song//: whatever's stuck in my head at the moment, right now it's "Chariot" by Gavin DeGraw
Music Video//: "My Immortal" - Evanescence
Animal//: dragons
Sport//: v-ball
Country//: Japan [cuz so much cool stuff comes from there]
Movie//: Lord of the Rings, Mulan, Last Samurai
Food//: mom's cooking

Best//: Ryoko-san
Closest//: MamaBear & Ryoko
Coolest//: see above + Sketch and Ambie
Sweetest//: my friends, sweet? are you kidding me?
Kindest//: they all are when they're not pissed at me
Most Annoying//: Ryoko-san cuz she intentionally tries to annoy me
Dullest//: NA
Stupidest//: all of us
Most Intelligent//: we all have our moments in the spotlight...not often though
Athletic//: ...not too sure about that...

Boy(Girl)friend//: this would inquire that I actually had one
Are you in love right now//: HA! that's funny
Do you have a crush//: it's not a crush if he knows about it.
Do you have a stalker//: how would I know?
Do you miss someone right now//: always do :heart:

What do you do...
At school//: fool around on the computer until I have to go to class, occassionally doing some real work if I'm pressed for time
At home//: indulge in my imagination
Outside//: I don't think I go outside enough to answer this
When you first wake up//: wish I could go back to sleep

Emotions Right Now
Are You Happy Right Now//: Not really
Sad//: not for a while
Grumpy//: when it comes to this stupid cold sore, yeah
Annoyed//: finished my papers so not anymore! :)
Angry//: I try not to be a lot
Sick//: Have been the last couple days...
Lonely//: always
Bored//: did you not see the title of this post?

Have you ever...
Made your own religion//: if you call believing all the deities of the world hang out up there like homies and taking turns watching over us, then yes
Written backwards//: that was fun
Written your own magazine//: never thought of it
Drawn art//: take a look at my gallery and you tell me
Got angry with a game//: I don't much like games that much
Played Lacrosse//: I don't even know what that is
Broken a bone//: not to my knowledge
Dyed your hair//: only with temporary stuff
Put in contacts for no reason//: I don't have them and I never want them
Swam alone//: are you kidding me? I can't even swim. what makes you think I'm going to do a stupid thing like that?

Things that come to mind when you read...
Intelligentence//: is that even a word?
Stupidity//: me and my friends
Depress//: depression
Blood//: red
Blue//: sky
Gray//: shade
Sword//: medieval
Golf//: Tiger Woods
Soccer//: Mia Hamm
Yellow//: sun
Socks//: shoes
Ribbon//: hair

Random Questions
Play Sports, if so, what ones//: I used to play v-ball for fun
Have a lot of friends//: used to
Write good//: I do it enough, I better
Eat a lot//: not really, though that doesn't stop me from gaining weight does it?
Like the day Friday//: always
Like the month December//: I would if it weren't for the excessive snow

Do you (or are you)...
(DY) Give good advice//: my friends seem to think so despite my lack of experience
(DY) Talk crap//: not often enough
(DY) Play a lot of games//: not really
(DY) Wear hats//: almost never
(DY) Like to be outside//: maybe at night but okaasan won't let me
(AY) Always mad//: no, cuz I have no reason to be
(AY) Always happy//: HELL NO!
(AY) A good friend//: I'd like to think so but you should ask my friends about that

This or that (Last questions)
Night or day//: night baby :D
Snow or Rain//: rain
Stars or the Moon//: moon [something about it is so alluring to me]
Ocean or Pool//: ocean
Boat or Plane//: neither
Books or Magazines//: books
Yu-Gi-Oh Cards or Pokemon Cards//: I won't even answer this one
Blonde or Black Hair//: doesn't really matter to me
Green or Blue Eyes//: I have this weakness for blue
Pants or Shorts//: I'd say pants cuz I don't want to see the hairy legs
Pop or Rock//: what?
Punk or Emo//: I don't even know what emo is
Tatoos or Piercings//: either one as long as it's tasteful
Necklace or Ring//: love em both!
Clouds or No Clouds//: I love cloud gazing
Art or Literature//: BOTH
Jeans or Baggy Pants//: don't care
Singing or Dancing//: both are fun
March or May//: May cuz the weather is just right
Halloween or Christmas//: um..pass
Coke or Pepsi//: truthefully I don't give a rat's azz
Hug or Kiss//: depends on the person
1. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
actually, it was Veronica

2. Who was the last person you talked to in person?

3. Who was the last person you talked to online?
um...I'd say Ryoko

4. Who was the last person you hung out with?
MamaBear right before her class

5. Who was the last person you took a picture with?
my cousin when she came over to visit

6.Who was the last person you danced with?
...MamaBear when we were camping out for State Fair tickets


1. What was the last thing you ate?
pumpkin cake...or was it sweet potato?

2. what was the last thing you drank?
Sunny D orange juice

3. What was the last movie you saw?
at the theater or at home? I saw Finding Nemo two days ago on TV. as for the theater...last June when I went with MamaBear to see "The Longest Yard"

4. What was your last phone call about?
just catching up with Veronica since I haven't talked to her since...graduation

5. What was your last instant message about?
if it was with Ryoko, then it's a safe bet that it was something silly and sexual.


1. Where did you go yesterday?

2. Where are your parents?
Okaasan's still sleeping downstairs.

3. Where do you keep your diary?
online for all to see

4. Where were you last week?
home & school pretty much is where I'm at


1. When was the last time you showered?
yesterday afternoon

2. When was the last time you hung out with your cousin
back in Sept. when she came over to visit

3. When was the last time you were at the mall?
...good question. I'd say when my cousin came over for a visit and Oniichan was showing her around KC [I was just tagging along]

4. When was the last time you were absent?
From school? last Tuesday when I didn't feel like going to Math

5. When was the last time you kissed someone? comment...


1. Why are you taking this survey?
cuz I was bored

2. Why are you online?
tis part of my morning routine

3. Why do so many girls think guys are jerks?
cuz most of them are.

4. Why are most things made in China?
there are a lot of pplz there to make stuff

5. Why do you use Myspace?
actually I don't.  I have it but I have so many live journals that I always seem to forget about it.

Name 5 of life's simple pleasures that you like most, then pick 5 people to do the same. Try to be original and creative and not to use things that someone else has already used. Tag 5 people on your list.

1. writing for the pure pleasure of it
2. any and all conversations that have no point and have you laughing the whole time
3. sitting in the dark in the middle of the night looking up at the full moon
4. watching anime
5. sleep

the only person I might tag is MamaBear cuz I know she'll end up doing this NE ways. other than that, I'm not tagging NE one unless we're outside and running around like little children. ;)